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Friday, July 29, 2005
YAYNESS

i'm back.
after weeks of not updating.
thanks to my attitudal computer.
sucky you know.

if u haven't realise, all my posts are posted by Aidah. but since she's sick, she can't help me. so i was like, keep refreshing and refreshing but my words still won't appear in the box.
what fcuk.

and yeap, Aidah was sick. she didn't come to school like, 3 weeks-2.5 days.
you do the math.
was hospitalised yesterday for the scope and discharged today! yayness! haha.
hope everything's alright. *prays hard*
Sebas, Jothi and I visited her at the hospital yesterday.
she seemed fine except when she need to drink the 'stuff'. eeuww?
so yadayada, reached home at 915pm. woo!

today is 28072005. which marks *our* 11 month anniversary.
oh gawd. but we still haven't patch yet! sucks right.
next month will be one year sey. and i have to decide whether i should patch
with him today or not. he asked already. but i don't know.
haizzzzzzzzzzzzzz!!

oh yes! Sebas brought me to NDP on 16th July.
it was superb! well, not really.
the acts are almost the same. but, i don't know. its just nice. haha.
we sat at the grandstand, which, believe me, is one of the suckiest thing ever.
for me at least. i had to resist looking at the Esplanade which is
DIRECTLY infront of me!
it was one of the hardest things to do considering BAYBEATS was going on at the same time!
the thought of all the people grooving to the music is lingering at the back of my head.
and its SO IRRITATING.
Sebas was getting fed up of me whining.
"eh...got Baybeats you know!"
"i wanna go Esplanade..."
"can we leave early then we go Esplanade can?"

i missed it though. freaking SHIAT.
anyhoos, pics are at my links okie dokie?

now what, or yes, i had to do 620 vocab words+meaning by tmr.
guess where am i now?
283! my gooseness! i'm in so much trouble ok. shuckx.

what else? ok la, about today.
first is, chemistry.
ouh! guess what? i understood a single poop about REDOX.
unbelievable right? but yes, i paid attention. its difficult but at least i understand.
like what my chem teacher said.
"redox is difficult like shit."
haha. ok shouldn't go further.

next, Mother Tongue. did a short story on don't know what.
i wrote on the transparency. then. presentation.
then my teacher commented, "saye suke tulisan ni. very neat. bagos."
alamak. kembang ah. ((x. paiseyyy.

then. english. go through comprehension which i didn't do.
boring. got back compo. 50 out of 100. what in the name of my auntie's pantyhose.
suppose to hand in vocab log and file by today. then, whole class begbegbeg
for extended time. and he gave 8am tomorrow morning.
hope i can finish it by today. damnation.

anyway, it was recess then, physics. do worksheet. daaa.
then, biology. yay! more stories. write down notes.
ok then, last period. E math. do trigonometry.
also i understand! woo! today i'm very concentrated.
haha. if you know what i mean.

that's about it. my day. and oh yes, yesterday no PE. so 2 free periods.
i slept. haha. so what's special? i never slept in class for an hour before ok!
haha. nice la.

oh! and when i was going down for recess, Sufiyan called out to me and said hello and waved.
then i waved back la. then at the back a few feets away i saw Tiger. face so cramped! i smile at him then he never smile back. he look so sad sey.
well he DID said he was jealous cos Sufiyan and i was quite close. oh wells.
*shrugs*

do you guys wanna hear more??
i don't think so right?
it has been so draggy. ((x.
so yeah.

one last thing. reggae/ska fest at fort canning park on 7 august.
i wanna go!! weeehooo.
wanna come with me? tag alrights. :)

ok bye!

x o x o

WITH LOVE ♥ 8:39 AM


Monday, July 11, 2005
doink

what's the story morning glory?

let's start off with the bloody imposter at Sharifah's blog!!
i was like, commenting on efa wanting a tankini, and then the next thing i knew, the stupid imposter comment on efa's post abt boobs and bikini. USING MY FREAKING NAME.
get a life la bitch/bastard. you want to comment on other
people use your own fcuking name la. wtfh. she wants to comment on them let her be la. you want to kepo USING MY NAME for what!

fudge you la!!

kidss.

cowardss.

ughhhhh!!!!

ok, moving on. can't tolerate this kind of people anymore. such loosers. idiotic bamboo bimbo bimbi bang bang losers. ok enough zuraaiinn.

i'm in contact with Fahd already.
waaaaaaaweeeeeeeeewoooooooo.
haha. and he's not angry with me.
bonus pointx.
and he helped me with my karangan!
how cool is that?!

me and Shafian.
break up mode.
in 3 days
time, i hafta decide whether to get back or not.
he hurt me a hell lot.
and do you know what he said before we broke up and before he wants me desperately back??
"i reali regret being with u."
and yeah, i regret giving you countless chances!
comment on that
people.

okaaaaaay. i've read about what the alternative follow-up project for the yp.
that's Youth Project.
i'm in ARTS so the follow-up project proposal was to do something about the Black Box at Theatreworks.
the proposal was to do Forum Theatre.
that was then.
so now the alternative is to do a Combined Carnival.
since noone was too enthu about the Forum Theatre thingy. hehe.

the Combined Carnival is our alternative proposal la.
proposed date will be 3-4 dec.
proposed venue, Palawan/Siloso Beach.
apparently, the carnival will involve anything to do with ARTS.
like, graffiti, bands/music groups, busking, street dance+modern dance+hip hop+break dance,
body art.
additional will be beach volleyball, gladiator, soccer, ultimate Frisbee and prolly
billiard supported by Community Development.
targerted audience will be youths! obviously.

We would also be collaborating with:

Singapore Sports Council (SSC) - to promote Sports for All.

National Arts Council

Power 98 FM

Sentosa
authorities


our first proposal is the Forum Theatre thingy.
Forum Theatre involves a drama that interacts with the audience.
will be held at Black Box at Theatreworks.
i don't know how to elaborate more cos that's all i know!

so you guys do me a favour and pick one that attracts you more ok?
cos it involves you guys too!
tagtagtag. thankx!

x o x o

WITH LOVE ♥ 11:55 AM


Friday, July 08, 2005

Greetings my young ones!

good news coming to u all.

i haf done u guys a favour by developing the pictures we took during the sea expedition.
AND THE PICTURES LOOK GOOD AND READY!
total there were 5 shots, and each of you 14 guys and gals will get a set of the 5 shots going at $1.25.
no extra charges, no tax, no kidding. (each copy costs $0.25)

details about the pictures: 4R size, matt finish (not glossy lah)

you all decide how i can pass u the photos. below are some suggestions:

a) meet up and i will pass each one of u personally (even tho i may not stay for long in the meet-up)
b) i shall meet with the rep from each of the schs (total 4 sch reps, collect the money 1st and
then help me to distribute the sets)

pls discuss among the 14 of u all (therefore inform those who are not in this mailing list because
i only received a few email addresses only) and come to a concensus. and then inform me.

unfortunately i am not able to distribute the soft copy due to the large memory size of each of the
photos.

please reply to this email. i am free on friday evening, just for your info.

regards
is, papa, grampa, whatever.

that was the email Iskandar sent to us. funny right. put a smile to my face. ((x. haizz, i miss papa.
i miss HILLARY. and i want my photos at Frog Island!
freaking SHIAT.
i can't help but feel guilty everytime i see Fahdzuli in school.
haizz.
a little piece of my heart break everytime he walks past.
i f e e l g u i l t y .
its really not his fault. at all. its mine.
FAHDZULI, if you're reading this, which i know you won't,
plsplspls forgive me. how come i never hear from you anymore?

*CONFESSION*
i liked the attention you gave me. though i didn't show it. you were really sweet.
attention is just what i needed. and you gave me that.
you put a smile on my face when i'm down. gave me advices and stuff.
made me laugh even when there's tears on my cheeks.
but what happened now? i don't want to admit that maybe, just MAYBE, i
have the, errm, feeling for you? i don't know and i don't want to know.
my heart can't feel love anymore. so, fahd? its not ur fault. really.

SHAFIAN dear, pls don't be heartbroken with what i just said ok?
its just what i felt. and you know i love you right. ((x
although my heart is stubborn.
thanks for the rings! appreciated.
heeeheee. are you reading this? you're not suppose to, you know.

nah, just kidding.
hmm, no moddy to bloggy. sooo, bye piggies!

WITH LOVE ♥ 10:14 PM


Sunday, July 03, 2005
he cried

and so, he cried.
MY BOYFREIND CRIED ON THE PHONE.
un. believable.

fully my fault.
partially his fault.
not at all Fahdzuli's fault.
sorry Fahd.
n0 commentx.

long story.
dear cry. i cry. its good that we cried.
yea, we cried together.
on the phone.
let out all anguish.
feel better now. and we're certainly better too.
=).

oh ya!! yesterday i saw a man turned into a woman!
really! 'he' was like wearing a mini skirt with a halter neck.
high heels and makeup. and talking with a hoarse voice.
'he' has boobs btw. and was wearing a bra.
'he' was working at MAC.
physically woman but wait till u listen to 'him' talk!
men these days.

i want to meet darlx!
i think that's all that i want to highlight in this post.
hee.
ok daaaaaaa!

WITH LOVE ♥ 9:50 PM


Saturday, July 02, 2005
IS it NOT?

hee. went town with mum and sis.
sis bought pants, tee and compact powder from mac.
mum bought 5 pillows.
i got tee from Samuel & Kevin and a skirt from Ebase.
what can i say.
it is the Singapore Great Sale.
i looooove my tee. =)

got something nice.
put punctuations in this sentence so that this makes sense.
ready? go!


is is not not not is not is is is is not is not is it not


answer at the end of post. =)

slept at 4 plus last night.
lemme rephrase.
slept at 4 plus this morning.
watched vcd.
drew on my new notebook.
beachbabes and a surfboard.
haha.
and when i grew bored, i started to look at pictures.
10 Jan. our first kiss. teehee.
i still blush when i look at the picture.
*those times.

why do u control me?
why can't i be friends with other guys when i'm with you?
you want to make me happy.
but do you know what makes me happy?
no.
*shakes head*
i'm just shutting up.
for now.
when i still have little patience left.


IS is not NOT. NOT is not IS. IS is IS. NOT is NOT. IS it NOT?

WITH LOVE ♥ 10:56 PM


cute!

hahaaaaaaa.
ok by now you guys should have heard the cutylicious song
sung by a toddler right.
oh nvr mind. i found the lyrics.
you're my honeybun, sugarplum
pumpy-umpy-umpkin. you're my sweetie pie.
you're my cuppycake, gumdrop,
snoogums-boogums, you're the apple of my eye.
and i love you so
and i want you to know
that i'll always be right here.
and i love to sing sweet songs to you,
because you are so dearrr.
aaaaaaaaahhhh. uber cute.
can't resist.
got a new notebook from my sis.
oh-so-girly-groovaye.
and yes, going shopping tmr.
BE jealous. or not.
my sis payday. can't waste it.
she spent $105 on groceries today.
report book issued today.
bloody hell la.
i got 26 points for L1R4.
HEH. i know i can get below 20. i know i can.
i just gotta work harder.
ALOT harder.
*wake up zuraaiinn.
my legs are still cramping.
helppppppp.
my heart's numb.
i can't feel love anymore.
i still feel touched.
i still feel jealous.
i still feel blushed.
but somehow, just somehow, i can't feel what i used to feel..
LOVE.
whereee are youu.

WITH LOVE ♥ 3:01 PM