Music's OFF

yep, had the SPX today. went with sebas.
told her to wear prettypretty. haha. and she did! =D
anyway, went lot 1 before we head there.
bought myself a necklace with a big flower. (:
then, had a little snack. saw familiar faces and head off to SP.
called 3 ppl to ask where to go. LOL.
so we were the FIRST two to enter the convention hall!
noone was in there except the speaker of the day. LOL.
so fun. so we listened through and i was shocked with some of the stuff i found out. oh my.
cut off points for biomedical is what, 9?! i lost hope instantaneously. hais.
anyway, had high tea after. saw familiar faces. nazirul, nizam, nik.
entered convention hall again to break off into grps.
saw more familiar faces. fiona, azlifa, rai, huda.
didn't get to say hi though. i was in group A3.
Media&Comm. (:
COP for that course is 12. FCK. lost more hope.
then when we were abt to head out of the digital media studio, i saw a room filled with iMACS!
then i got excited and whispered to sebas, "they got iMAC leh! omg, sebas!! iMACs!"
then one of the lecturers said, "not iMACS! our MACS!" LOL-
paiseh-fied. =X
anw, rounding the business places some more.
saw more&more familiar faces. LOL. nice.
then headed to auditorium to listen abt each courses again.
then quiz time, one of the q was asked. then i whispered to sebas the ans.
she automatically raised up her hand and answered. it was correct and she got the prize. -.-"
NOT FAIR. haha. so anyway, during one of the stops, we did a survey on entrepreneur. i didn't get a chance to, so i did it at home. this are my results.

Risk Taking
Risk taking refers to whether you possess daringness to take on opportunities when the outcome is unclear.
You are not a risk taker. Your fear of failure overwhelms you.
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Risk Taking
Risk taking refers to whether you possess daringness to take on opportunities when the outcome is unclear.
You are not a risk taker. Your fear of failure overwhelms you.
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Achievement Orientation
Achievement orientation refers to how much effort will you input on achieving the end result.
You are not achievement orientated. You have little ambition but it is no crime alright?
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Achievement Orientation
Achievement orientation refers to how much effort will you input on achieving the end result.
You are not achievement orientated. You have little ambition but it is no crime alright?
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Locus of Control
Locus of control refers to how much you believe that your success or failure is controlled by external circumstances. A high grade refers to a less reliance on external forces and a stronger self belief.
You believe that men cannot control most circumstances. Your thoughts could be "everything is fated".
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Locus of Control
Locus of control refers to how much you believe that your success or failure is controlled by external circumstances. A high grade refers to a less reliance on external forces and a stronger self belief.
You possess self belief yet at the same time do not believe that you can control everything.
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Determination
Determination refers to how much resolve or firmness you have to achieve your goals.
You have poor determination. When the going get tough, you are the first to strike out.
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Determination
Determination refers to how much resolve or firmness you have to achieve your goals.
You are quite a determined person. However when the situation becomes difficult, you could give up at some point.
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Innovation
Innovation refers to how much creativity you have to create something new.
You have some innovation. However, creativity is definitely not your forte.
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Innovation
Innovation refers to how much creativity you have to create something new.
You have a lot of creative juice. Your ability to think "out of the box" is a great asset.
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Leadership
Leadership refers to your capacity or ability to lead people
You possess some leadership skills. However due to some restrictions (i.e. fear of speaking your mind), you are not yet there. Still, you can horn these skills and become a good leader.
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Leadership
Leadership refers to your capacity or ability to lead people.
You possess some leadership skills. However due to some restrictions (i.e. fear of speaking your mind), you are not yet there. Still, you can horn these skills and become a good leader.
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Your Total Score is 90%

Excellent. You are born entrepreneur. If you are not presently running your own business you should definitely start one, the sooner the better. You are on the way to frame and riches.

i dunno what the top ones are abt but look at the last para! 90 freaking percent!!! LOL.
sebas got *ehem* 47% and Fee got 54%.
ooooooowwwwwweeeeeeee-
mum said she will start a restaurant and i can run the business. lol.
oh whatever, i'm not interested to be a businesswoman anyway. haha. what a waste.
so anyway, after the thingy, headed to westmall. ate. waited for Fee to come.
played a lil arcade. then headed home.

feels so nice when i finally get to be in his arms again. though for awhile. i SO miss that!
and that bitch i call a friend, dun get too close to him. you know his only mine (tho it's near impossble for u two.) !

OH! btw, pls vote for my HUNKies! PAUL TWOHILL AND JONATHAN LEONG !!!
Paul Twohill: ABSOLUTE cuteness with that messed up hair covering his eyes! his dimples and those braces! oh my! he should have thinner lips though. HEHE. cuteness KILLS.
Jonathan Leong: he's SOOOOOOO abso-f*cking-lutely charming! i think. and he's voice is soooooo michael buble! so SUAVE. melts me. oh my goooooooooose. pls, open the door for him into the next round. (:
and i think rahimah not bad too. but, not as good either. oh well.

look of the day:

straight hair. and yes, a red top.

xoxo

PS/ pls visit http://beingiswandy.blogspot.com and read the May 31st post. (:

Music's OFF

so parents + sis & i went out yesterday.
went for dinner at the usual ayam penyet.
then headed to parkway parade after.
was searching for the Nike College bag i wanted.
cost 62 bucks.
told my sis i pay 30 while she pay for me the rest since she got her pay. heh.
so i chose the white+green+grey one.
sister gave me 52 bucks. so i gave her my remaining 20 but she didn't take.
so i gave her a cheesy smile. hehhhhhhhhh.
i only used 10 bucks for that bag! weeee~
anyway, sis & i went topshop while parents headed to Giant.
sis tried on tees. confused over turqoise and yellow.
so i chose yellow for her.
25% dscount if we purchased 2 pieces.
so sister told me to get one for myself. =D
i took red!

then headed to Giant to get groceries.
blahblahblah.
headed home.

funny stuff happened.
at first, sister gave dad $50 since she got her pay.
then, on the way home, both dad and sis were talking abt a Honda which was really nice and spacious. and my sis said it was the car that parked at the first level of our block's carpark everyday. my dad didn't believe cos we saw that car in the expressway and it sounded impossible. so we kinda tailed the car until my sis' block. my dad and sis bet each other: if my dad wins, sis gives dad 50. if sis wins, dad gives back 50. i checked, and it REALLY is the car we saw at the expressway. my sister won. called her. my dad told me he give me $20 if i lie to my sis. hahahaha. so i did. but it was just a joke la. my sis thought she was wrong at first and decided to give dad 50...CENTS. -.-"

oh well, it was just a joke after all.

anyway, i can't wait for my family's new car!




TOYOTA WISH

but our's will be the X version.
something like this..



...but in BLACK.

yeps, i can hardly waaaaaaait!
comecome faster come!!

xoxo

Music's ON: Sugar, We're Going Down - Fall Out Boy

i've got the blue form.
in fact, my whole class did.
Mr Lim couldn't be bothered.

some pictures taken by my phone.




original

edited by phone

tell me, why do i look so retarded?

xoxo

PS/ me & you what's going on? always seem to know just how to show, the feelings that are wrong..

Music's OFF

sometimes i can't help but wonder. why do people hate people? is it because they envy them? jealous of them? is it because they did something so horrible it cant be forgiven? is it because they just do what one can't accept? or simply just because they don't like one's face? there has to be a reason. i often sit and ponder, about why i dun like certain people and their attitudes, and why i think hating people for no apparent reason is a waste of time.

some say hating is a part of life and it's ok to hate. but for me, i don't see a need to. why waste time on hating when that person could be your friend? so, for me, it's nicer to dislike one's attitude than to hate someone as a whole. that's too far-fetched. even worse, when u don't even know the person well.

i've been into many of these silly stuff in my past. and i can't help but think, why do people hate me? they don't even know me well to be standing in a place where they can say, "oh, she suck. i hate her." the HATE word is so overrated. it has been used on people without thinking twice and may hurt one's feeling even when it's so obvious when the one who used it, did not exactly mean it. i've had people telling me that oh, whatsername don't like u... or, whatsisname hates u. the thing is, NEITHER whatsername NOR whatsisname know me WELL. and up till now, i DON'T understand why they dislike/hate me.

stereotype. it may be the cause of hatred amongst people. especially to people who don't know another well. take me, for example. i've been despised by, let's say, Girl H. i'm not close to her. i don't know her well, neither does she know me perfectly. for some reason or another, she accused me for something i did not do. the incident that happened may be a coincidence, but that has nothing to do with reality. is she taking advantage of this time to like, "officially" hate me? but why? what wrong did i do? JEALOUSY?

maybe she stereotyped me to be a smart-assed girl who is in the first class of express and has everything she wants in this world including her ex. REALITY CHECK. hate me because you're jealous? i'm not saying it's a fact. if it's not, THEN WHAT IS? i truly don't know what's wrong with me for Girl H to hate. and since that silly incident she ASSUMED i had done on purpose, i can tell that she constantly gave me her cold shoulder and saying crude stuff. automatically, you would react too right? so i did. i really dislike her attitude becos she had her point of view of what happened, and that's that. did she listen to mine? NO. did she care? NO. did she continue to say crude stuff to me? YES. maybe it's just my guilty conscience. but then again, it's not. becos i once set my shout-out to someone else in friendster, and she shot me back with a defensive tone. i tried being bitchy, but i get tired. it's really frustrating to be faced with these kinda people.

i really don't know how to stop this. i ignored her. i really did. whenever i read my friends' shout-outs in friendster, i shut my eyes when it comes to hers. i do not wanna start world war 3. it's silly to be doing this, while she on the other end, happily shooting away abt me. i have no right to say i hate her, because i don't know her well. i just need to clear these barrier of hatred, and why the fcking hell she hates me in the first place. she's jealous of me? what do i have that makes her envious of me? i have NOTHING to flaunt. i have NOTHING for her to be angry/jealous abt. in fact, i should be jealous of HER, because she has the looks. i DARE say this, i'm telling the truth and only the truth. i really should be envious of her. but what's the use of a pretty face with a sucky attitude?

.......

and i sometimes feel people dislike me for reasons i don't know. am i proud? being in 4e1 doesn't make me proud. if u think i am, then you're wrong. i'm one of the potential failures in class. NOTHING to be proud of. so pls, don't stereotype. maybe i'm just quiet. I"M NOT PROUD neither do i look down on people. get this clear. i hope this gets around alot of people.

so, NO STEREOTYPE = possibly LESSER HATRED.

and for that Girl H, i'm just gonna let her be. let her entertain herself (my mum told me this =]). don't say u hate people until you know the truth and themself well ok?

xoxo

Music's ON: My Generation - Oasis

school was okay today.
i guess.
did worksheet 7 & 8 for malay today.
that's all, nvr go thru any stuff.
what's the point of having intensive then?
8am-2pm intensive malay on thurs.
CRAZY. INSANE. DEMENTED. MAD. fckyou.

el-
did sentences thing.

chem-
bargained date for remedial lessons in June.

bio-
talked abt remedial lessons in June.
bargain again.

life is getting exceptionally boring.

dun feel like updating anymore.
idiots.

xoxo

Music's ON: Who Feels Love - Oasis

i think i listen to Oasis a little too much.
haha. their song rocks okay.

so anyway, i failed my english ppr two by one mark. but i passed overall. thanks to my compo. saved my arse. my grades are deteriorating la. wth. MUST. STUDY. HARD. HARDER. THAN. BEFORE. sadness. but, good to hear from two teachers that i'm improving. and i think i improve in chem too. but i still fail. stupid smooth brain.

well, anyway, played bb with fee, ky, hy and sebas after school yesterday. went home to change first. laughed soooo much cos ky kept saying funny stuff. hahaha. Fee went home to get bball while we sat and chat. then he came back with the bball. played played. then cijin came. played a silly little match. girls v guys. hehs. then sebas wanted to go. so i sent her home and bought drinks. thought hy & ky didn't want any so bought for fee and cj and myself. but hy was thirsty and so she took cj's mineral. until she sipped a little and changed her mind. sooooo....hy, u know i know. *wink*

then ky left...played match with fee and cj. hy and i against them. dunno abt the scores. LOL. but i wasn't that bad okeh! heee. fun lah. i screamed alot. LOL. then decided to go home. hy told me something... haha. nvm. was damn tired when i got home. went to slumber land. woke up around 10.30pm to have my DINNER, mind you. then watch tv and went back to sleep again. woke up with cramps and aches at my arms. see, i shot alot. HAHA.

anyway, mummy told me she already ordered the Toyota Wish. and it's arriving in June. like, hello. my family's getting a new car! woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo! so shiok man. i can't wait!
so anyway, played bb with fee again today. not many ppl were there. today is boring.

SKIP.

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.
.
.
.

well, byebye!

xoxo

Music's OFF

i've got most of my papers back.
some very terrible results.
yes, i'm SHOWING OFF dammit.
=X

EDITED:// -[22.05.06]

English
Ppr 1 - 35/60
Ppr 2 - 49/100
Total: 52.5%

E Maths
Ppr 1 - 46/80
Ppr 2 - 46/80
Total: 57.5%

Malay
Ppr 1 - ?
Ppr 2 - 41/70

Combined Humanities
SS: 60/100
Geog: 22/50
Total: 52%

Chemistry
Ppr 1 - 15/40
Ppr 2 - 35/80
Ppr 3 - 11.5/40
Total: 38%

Physics
Ppr 1 - 15/40
Ppr 2 - 33.5/80
Ppr 3 - 18.5/30
Total: 45%

Biology
Ppr 1 - 26/40
Ppr 2 - 38.5/80
Ppr 3 - 25.5/40
Total: 56%

i failed too many subjects lar!
this is like soooo sick. i tried my fcking best and i STILL fail like, wth. -.-
i'm too stupid lah can?
even if i pass it's very average kind.
and when i fail, it's TERRIBLY.
eng, math, mly, geog;
let's hope/wish/pray that the second ppr DUN pull my marks down.
or else, i have less then 5 subjects passed.
INSANE.
just let me cry...

20/30 for my english compo!
15/30 for situational writing. =X
but my compo is respectable. heh.

e maths?
no comment.
my brain was blardy blank and smoothen out when i did this ppr.

i passed my freaking malay.
i thought i'd fail!
but i paaaaaaaaaassssssssed.

geog ppr yet to be received.
ss ppr, argh, no comments.
meowmeow said, "practice your SBQ skills...."

oh, and i'm surprised.
my chemistry ppr 2 had one of the qs on MOLE CONCEPT.
it costed 4 marks and it was based on titration, if i'm not wrong.
andddddd I GOT THE 4 FREAKING MARKS LAH! (that explains my entry title.)
i was like, "is this my paper?"

unbelievable can.
eversince i started learning that topic and up till now, i nvr get that kind of question correct.
either that, or i completely skip the q. =X
and now, i got full freaking marks for midyr lah.
but wth, i still fail. fckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.
i thought i improved chem bcos i didn't fail as badly as i used to.
but super-ang didn't encourage me or anything. that's so SAD la. hais

one more shock.
i passed my phy practical when i expected to fail.
expected to fail terribly some more.
(that explains the second surprise in my title.)
i had this guilty conscience when ms neo stated abt how we wrongly measured the the distance between the lens and screen. she described the wrong way of measuring, and that's exactly what i did. blurgh. and i got 3 marks for my graph! heh heh. if only i dotted those triangle lines....

was quite pleased for my bio practical although i didn't do quite well.
at least i can draw the banana!
"ok lah. got improvement," said mr anand. (:
i shall show him i can do better!

i must study harderrrrrrrrrrrrr!
(i always say that. -.-)

xoxo

Music's ON: I Hope, I Think, I Know - Oasis

You're trying hard to put me in my place
And that is why I gotta keep running
The future is mine and it's your disgrace
'Cause in the end your laugh means nothing

You feel a little down today
But you ain't got much to say
Who's gonna miss you when you're not there
You know we don't care, You know we don't care

first intensive mt programme today. like so fcking boring la! wtf. made us sit in the classroom for 2h 30min doing ppr 1&2 and NO teaching at all. like, what's the point man?! was so pissed and i sat there for so fcking long and i had to literally squirm in my seat cos my butt was like effing aching la. wtfh. then e1 and e2 mly students had to join with sec 5ns. no comment la but i prefer 4e classmates, dunno y. i need more motivation for this intensive programme that will last for 2 fcking weeks and i calculated; it freaking takes away 25 hours of my life la! -.- and OH, it took away my recess time too.

a math, 1 free period. e math after. passed my ppr 1 but very bad. lunch- fish burger with cheeeeese. and then physics. failed! like wtfh. i studied okeh. not very hard la but i did revised like shit until i sleep so late for two nights. i'm just stupid la. fck. but ms neo said i had more effort put in this year and there's more improvement but i still need that something to push the barrier...ah, wth, still fail la. study harderrrr! and then it's assembly where the principal talked about LEARNING IS LIVING. wth.

there. my school day in 2 paragraphs.
had lunch at kfc with the girls.
not really hungry so decided to skip dinner and have 2 lunches instead.
hurhur.
ky & i were fiddling with our bluetooths.
she sent me 2 pics. i sent her a song. LOL-
very cool.

headed home.
D&D conference on MSN.
then, here to blog.

currently watching videos at YouTube.
hahas. some are damn hilarious can.
dancing like robots tak menjadi.
hahs.

off-

xoxo

Music's ON: Don't Go Away - Oasis

so don't go away
say what you say
but say that you'll stay
forever and a day in the time of my life
'cause i need more time
yes, i need more time, just to make things right
.
.
.
and I wanna be there when you're coming down
and I wanna be there when you hit the ground

this song rocks la. period.

so yes, HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY TO ALL MUMMIES !
supposed to have a meeting this morning.
it was cancelled cos most of them couldn't make it.
decided to search for a mothers' day present.
dragged FeeDEAREST along.
hahahas.
went to bpp but the sandals there not nice.
no nice cake too.
and didn't know what cookbook my mum wants!
then sister called me and told me to pass money to my brother in law.
headed back home, passed the money, then met Fee again.
this time, we went to Lot 1.
searched around.
and then, i decided to buy a companion for my hp.
SO...



there she is!
LIL' PIPPY.

very adorable, i KNOW.
and then we walked around&around again.
till i decided to get a pair of sandals from Seiyu for dearest mum.
got the bronze one.
(and yes, my mum loved it! only it was one size too small for her; so we went to change it. there's no size 8 in bronze so she didn't have a choice but took dark grey.)
after that, we bought OCK and headed home since mum called.
so yeah~

i wanna have a getawaaaayyyy~
like, REAL SOON.
so bored at home can?!
June Hollies, pls come soon..

my mum went Melaka last Friday.
she bought me 2 polo tops, and this...



haha!
(and no, it doesn't have a name.)

xoxo

Music's OFF

went to have dinner with parents + sis last night.
went to parkway parade after to meet with relatives.
searched for cousin's shoes.
asked aunt to buy for me this flower thingy.
it's not necessary but i can't help it.
need something to cheer me up.
saw a pretty top from Samuel&Kevin.
that goes to my wishlist.

sat near the fountain while relatives chattered away.
was damn sad la that time.
thinking&thinking&thinking.
even mum noticed my puffy eyes even when i wasn't crying that time.
went home.

received an sms.
from him.
went ballistic and cried like no tmr.
shall not continue.

confided in sebas and hy.
thanks girls; luv you.

needed someone to talk to badly; so i texted shafian, the ex.

a conversation with the ex last night.
.
.
.
S: what do u mean? love, both of u need to understand each other...u need to sit down together and tell him what u dun like and what u like abt his attitude.
Z: that's what sebas told me...but i can't be that straightforward. i might not accept what he has to say and vice versa.
S: try talking to him nicer la...maybe he will change.
Z: u think he will change...? will guys change for girls?
S: if he truly loves u, he will change...but rmmbr, it takes time..
Z: then how come u nvr change? for me?
S: i did change. but not up to your expectations.
Z: u changed terribly. u changed for the worse...
S: if that's it, i have nothing to say... but i do change, i want u to know.
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.
.
.

and then i cried myself to sleep.
looking at his picture makes my whole body tingle with knives.
especially my heart.

i don't know what to say.
i envy other people.

xoxo

Music's ON: Beautifully Broken - Ashlee Simpson

last day of exam.
physics ppr 1.
breakfast at macs.
plastic kangaroo thingy from him.
7 month-versary.
thank you.

intend to play bb.
waited for bball for 2 hour +.
played abit, got f**king irritated with them who played soccer at the bb court.
triggered my anger.
walked off; furious with him.
cried because of ___________________.
police came.
went home.

SHIT EVERYTHING.

ps. wilbert was nice; thank you.

Music's ON: If It's Lovin' That You Want - Rihanna

hello there.
I'm here to announce my seperation with.....hais.
we've been very devoted, yes.
but some things, you can't hold on to forever.
he gave me all the goodnight msgs.
encouraging me with goodluck stuff.
touching my heart with poems.
he connects me with all the people that cared for me.
slept with me every night; waking me up with his lively sounds.
we've been through so much, two years.
it's hard to let him go, but, i've found my new love.


goodbye NOKIA 3120. i will miss those times.

and now....for my NEW LOVE......
*jengjengjeng*


NOKIA 3250 baby~!

why pink?
black's too MANLY.
silver's common.
green's like my iPod.
so pink it is!

it has bluetooth functions.
no 3G though. huhu. don't need it.
i need the MUUUUUUUUUSIC !
got them yesterday.
went home with 3 sets of hp.
nokia 6020 for mum (it's free).
sony ericsson k608i for dad (free+$150).
and nokia 3250 for myself!

ahhhhhhhhhhh~
bliss. finally a new hp.
ONE DISADVANTAGE!
no msg counter. -.-"






LOOOOVEEE ITTT- !

sorry sufiyan! you'll be my second best now!
=Pp



xoxo

Music's ON: Geek in the Pink - Jason Mraz

NO. my midyrs have not ended.
i'm just dropping by for a quick update, since it's friday.
so, HELLO again.

oh yeahs, 5 days of exams GONE.
3 more to go!
i'm left with...go see my event list.
the passage for my english ppr 2 was rather confusing.
i couldn't understand the storyline.
geography...can make it i hope.
couldn't finish my last two sentences!
malay ppr 1 was quite okay.
i'm afraid my compo would be abit unrelevant.
and i chose DIALOGUE.
malay ppr 2 was ok except for bina ayat.
pengangguran is retirement, and i assumed it was organisation! LOL.
yups, then e math ppr 2.
i think i'd screw this, like omg.
i didn't do six part questions.
as in, (a) and (i). yeah.
SOCIAL STUDIES ! i screwed two SBQs, CONFIRMED.
both evaluating: one reliability, one usefulness.
i was frantically writing that i didn't cross-ref much.
let me pass pls. =X
had BIOLOGY ppr today. both ppr 1&2.
anand said it would be difficult! but it was actually quite easy.
especially ppr 1. was aiming for FULL marks. lol lol lol. =X
ppr 2 would be easy too! if i concentrated on those topics i ignored, i could have done better. hmphs.
the q on dialysis got me excited. cos i know what's happening. :)
OH YEAH ! i made one DUMB blunder!

what class of chemicals can kill bacteria?
PENICILLIUM. (yes, i know it's a fungus but i really had no idea what was the ans.)

i'm an idiot!
the ans is ANTIBIOTIC. wtfh. -.-"
cannot stand myself sometimes.

so this that yadiyas..
CJ IS A VERYYYYYY FRIENDLY + CARING GUY !
huhu.
prank-called him the other day.
and Fee went like, "PRANK CALL, CIJIN! PRANK CALL!"
LOL !!
then hy asked me call him back and say Fee was the one who called.
so i did,

"hello, ah..hi cijin, just now is sufiyan call one leh."
"oh, sufiyan ah? who's this?"
"zuraiin."
"ohh...you all not studying ah?"
"ya we're studying! you wanna join us?"
*noise from sebas&hy*

then hy said something to cj then she put down. LOL.
i wanted to hear what he say when i ask him wanna join us anot .
then the noise, then i cant hear liao!!
ah, sadded. hahahahas. i think sebas was blushing that's why hy was making noise. LOL.
-.-"

chemistry ppr on monday!
MUG HARD, ZURAIIN!



xoxo