♥ tickets please.

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

ambition ?

Music's OFF

i want to work in a hospital !!
reallyreally.

went to Tan Tock Seng with my mum just now for my appointment.
then i saw all these fancy named centres.
neuroscience institute.
neurology -somethingsomething-.
vascular -something- specialist clinic.
diabetes & endocrine centre.
all these fancy names make me smile cos i know what it means !! hahaha.
&& i envy those people with ~~white suits (you know the ones like docs wear. what do they call it?)~~lab coats entering labs and specialist clinics and all.
like so nice like thaaaaat.

sighs. i wanna work in a hospital !
but i must not have to handle patients/sickly people la. you know.. i don't like that !
maybe just in a laboratory. ehhhh, i want a ~~white suit (?)~~lab coat of my own !
i want biomedical science... sobs.

fattest & highest hope of all.
SIGHS .

anyhoos, my mum once told me that my brother have very little patience.
that time, my mum and him went out to buy food.
then when my mum bought fruits (those cut ones) and asked for one more satay stick, the woman behind the cashier made a fuss.
she just took the container full of sticks and shove it on the counter.
my bro got angry and he scooped up a handful of satay sticks in the container and on the way out, threw all of it in the bin.
so pro can. =.=

i think it's in the genes that our family is so sensitive.
except my dad. and my bro-in-law. i guess.

OH WELL.

i bought new shoes again. it's for school la.
converse double tongue in pink and light blue.
but the outside is grey.
pretty ! suitable for school AND casual wear.

aights.
nothing more to update on so, toodles yaw.

xoxo

break me, take me, just let me fill your arms again.

WITH LOVE ♥ 8:49 PM

Monday, December 25, 2006

it means alot.

every single one of your touch is precious to me.
every single time you step into my dreams, it means a lot.

but every single teardrop is another step to my suicide.

no, i won't be stupid.
i won't give up.
not any more.

xoxo

i know that you wanna pay me for all the pain that i've caused.

WITH LOVE ♥ 9:42 PM

Saturday, December 23, 2006

night at the museum.

Music's ON: Like A Star - Corinne Bailey Rae

i was a nervous piece of shit when i met him just now.

everything was good, though.

but i'm still a little confused. =/

what does it mean now ?

you held my hand, what does that mean ?

you hugged me, what does that mean ?

you kissed me, what does THAT mean ?

we laughed 'till our heads knocked.....

ok, i know what this means - Night At The Museum was super doooooooper funny lar !

rated 5 stars outta 5 moons. no doubt about that.

so people present were-

yangyu

kai yi the dinosaur

hui-yin the hippo

carmen the penguin

aubrey

sufiyan

&& myself

(i was a butterfly but then i realised dinosaur/hippo/penguin/cat[zuraidah] all bigger than me. so i dropped that animal. now i'm an otter, OKAAAAAAY! forgot what sebas was, though.)

first stop, plaza sing. via 190.

headed to cathay cineplex.

got the 1:40pm show. haha hehe huhu.

lalalalalalala then go home. cos sufiyan have to go work mahs.

my fav part was when Larry was comforting that big scary wild man.

i laughed till i teared. rofl.

so....... did you mean what you said ?

that whisper, "i love you".

was that from the heart ?

am i still the one you think about 24/7 ?

am i the only one ?

soo many questions left unanswered.

it was a great thing having able to spend time with you today.

thanks for everything. (:

OKAAAAAAAAAAAY.
so i'll leave you guys with an ABSOLUTELY dumb picture of my brother.

he has a stupid habit of standing so blah-dy near to the lift.

and when i took this pic, the lift on the left arrived on the first floor first.

KUKU- ! :D

toodles gamoooogles !

xoxo

how 'bout i'll be nothing, nothing at all to you ?

WITH LOVE ♥ 6:42 PM

Friday, December 22, 2006

tagged again.

Music's ON: Candyman - Christina Aguilera

TAGGED BY NISA.

01. Your name plus "poo"?
ANS : zuupoo.

*extra* plus "ed"?
ANS : zuupooed.

02. Two feelings at the moment?
ANS : sad & worried.

03. What are you listening to right now?
ANS : pls refer to the top. thanks. ^^

04. A part of a song lyric that is in your mind?
ANS : Come Back To Me - Vanessa Hudgens.

05. The highlight of your week?
ANS : shopping, baby.

06. What are you craving to have for right now?
ANS : auntie anne's sour cream and onion. without the pretzel.

07. Any unforgettable childhood memories?
ANS : sure. i just can't remember now.

08. A not-so-good childhood memory?
ANS : i fell from my chair. like how stupid is that?!

09. What are your nicknames?
ANS : ain, zuu

10. Your three plans for tomorrow?
ANS : out with gfs, movie, xmas party.

11. Are you thinking of someone right now?
ANS : yeap. always.

12. Are you single?
ANS : for now, yes.

13. What do you want?
ANS : my happy-go-lucky life back.

14. Say anything you like to whoever is reading your answers .
ANS : HELLO !!!! *waves vigorously*

15. Are you feeling hungry?
ANS : nope.

16. Who do you miss right now?
ANS : himhimhim.

17. Last friend you talked to online?
ANS : KAI YI.

18. What do you like about the night?
ANS : cool yeh.

19. If you visit a farm, what would you like to see?
ANS : horse !

20. When you were a kid, what would you want to be till now?
ANS : myself!

21. Last gift?
ANS : hp accessory.

22. Do you like it?
ANS : i think so.

23. Do you play an instrument?
ANS : no. hehehe.

24. What song did you last hear?
ANS : truly madly deeply - cascada

25. People you hate most?
ANS : walking contradicts.

26. Who makes you laugh the most?
ANS : GIRLFRIENDS !!

27. What makes you smile?
ANS : cheese.

28. Who do you have a crush on?
ANS : hehehehehehehehehehe.

29. Name 10 ppl to do this .
* SUFIYAN.
* DANI.
* EISHAH.
* fidza.
* iswandy.
* naddz.
* naqiah fss.
* cindy.
* ain.
* fifa.
(if you guys are reading this.)

actually right, y`all don't wanna do also nvm la.
'cause riiiiiiiiiiiiight, i lazy wanna go your blogs and tag.
hehehehehehe.

ok, that's all !

xoxo

he's a sweet, chocolate, sugar-coated candyman

WITH LOVE ♥ 7:35 PM

Thursday, December 21, 2006

good progress.

Music's ON: Rock Steady - All Saints

one piece of fab news.
i've got the GOOD PROGRESS AWARD.
$150.00
ker-ching ker-ching.!
sounds like more shopping to me!

see, i told ya.
rotting at home ain't that bad.
money still fall in my hands!
wakakakaka.

right.
OH BTW, my tamagotchi got baby!
that time a matchmaker visited.
then, "LOVE? Yes/No" popped up.
then i select yes. curious mah.
then got this boy tamagotchi (it's ugly) appeared.
then got hearts all over then, the lights turned off.
probably doing some sperm transfer.
then the lights on back, and there's a baby!!
i'm guessing it's a girl. no name though.

eeeeeekkk.
brainfreeze. nothing more to say.
till here, sexy monsters.

toodles.

xoxo

let the rain fall down & wake my dreams.

WITH LOVE ♥ 3:28 PM

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

over.

Music's ON: Illegal - Shakira

we're over.
i don't like to be treated like a fool.
he made me think like i'm chasing for some rich prince.
waiting for him to "decide".
in the end, i get nothing. nada. zilch.
it may not be a waste of time.
it's just wasted efforts.
how long do i have to wait ?!
so i ended it right there.
maybe i won't regret. maybe i will.

like i said, i TRIED.
to trust him, to care, to make thing better.
but it takes time.
and he doesn't want to give me that.
expect me to change in a blink of an eye.

for now, i gotta start learning to stop thinking of him.
that's gotta be hard.
but hell, he doesn't care anyway.

[update]
time will tell.
[/update]

see you guys when i feel better.

xoxo

you say you'd love me 'till you die;
as far as i know you're still alive ..

WITH LOVE ♥ 4:40 PM

Sunday, December 17, 2006

sentosa

Music's OFF.

just a very rough update on sentosa trip.

CAAS Family Day & Changi Airport 25th Anniversary Staff Celebration.
i'll do the classic "let-the-pictures-do-the-talking" .
after all, a picture says a thousand words! ;)

danish haziq. uber cute, ouii ?

uh huh, uh huh. HADY MIRZA yawwwww. first time see him live in person.
macho and handsome la! and his body, beats Taufik. =S

orange popsicle ! look at how much i slouch in the pic !

bus ride.

hello, mr. scuba diver ! :D

love this snapshot.

in underwater world.

Nina & i.

ok that's all. lazy to upload more.

hehe.

so for today.

went for another session of HIPHOP.

only got one guy today, his friends never come.

started on choreo. learnt more steps = do more screw ups.

that sick instructor a.k.a hafiz keep laughing whenever i screw up.

my friends nvm lar but YOU ! don't laugh and go slower can. like stupid. (-.-)

anyway, got the hang of it and i did all the steps correctly on the veryvery last part!

hahahas. *bigbig grin*

ok then last part take attendance.

came to my name, "oohh, zuraiin seyyyy".

then he smileeeeeeeeed. (hy, you know what i mean!)

then merepek la he. i wave to signal that i'm here, he wave back.

-__________-"

SO, parents + cousins fetched me from the cc cos we going my relative's house straight.

boring can.

but mum made SATAY and grandma cooked mee soto !

i added loads (2 tablespoons) of the chilli.

FUUUU YOOOOOOOOOO ! spicy man! love it .

wakakaka.

oh ya, while at my relatives' house, alot of funny things happen.

aunt1- "if i turn the diapers back to front and the front to back, will anything happen??"

aunt2- "ya, the butt will go to the front."

LOL. what kind of question is that ?!

andand, my uncle who likes to order my aunt1 around asked for a mee hoon soto again. then, i took one piece of mee hoon and give to him. haha.

thenthen, in the end, my grandma take.

i purposely put LOADS of spring onions & LOADS of fried onions & LOADS of chilli. LOLs.

stayed till around 9.

now, i'm here !

sister went to Mount Fuji earlier today.

she say japan is so fun she don't wanna come back and see me. :(

&& she told me to try and have fun here while she try not to have fun there.

how mean.

but nvm la, stay there all you like, hor, sis ! *evil laughter in the background*

BUT STILL, she's coming back on the night of eve of christmas.

no wait, it's on christmas. 1am flight i think.

can't wait to see what she bought for me ! :D

alrights, till here monstas.

xoxo

he told me i'm the only one that he could see.

& i said ditto, ditto, ditto.

WITH LOVE ♥ 9:24 PM

Friday, December 15, 2006

tagged

Music's ON: Too Little Too Late - Jojo

tagged by EISHAH !

1. Song playing at the moment?
- too little too late by jojo.

2. Reasons for living?
- enjoyyyyyyy, baby.

3. Do you think you're ok?
- no i don't think, i am !

4. Ever donated blood?
- nope. i don't even know my bloodgroup can?

5. Favorite color(s)?
- brown, limegreen, pink & black !

6. Accessories you usually wear?
- a pair of silver studs.

7. One song to describe a heartbreak in the past?
- stuck by stacie orrico.

8. Last place you went to?
- my own room.

9. Last person you went out with?
- parents + all the relatives.

10. The most exciting sport?
- netball, i guess.

11. Ever had a baby?
- LOL.

12. Movie you want to watch?
- the holiday.

13. Any piercings?
- a pair.

14. The most romantic gift?
- a fake flower. with the message, "i'll only stop loving you when this flower dies". i still have the flower and he has a new gf. lol lol.

15. Act on stage before?
- yupyup. (:

16. Struck by lightning before?
- nopes. or else i won't be here doing this.

17. Danced with your loved ones before?
- no ah. hahaha.

18. Ever wished you could turn back time?
- sometimes. not now, though.

19. What would you do if you woke up one day to find yourself to be with someone from the opposite sex?
- panic !!

20. One song that's meaningful to you?
- ditto by cassie.

21. Last person you met for the firsttime?
- fareeq, my aunt's intern.

22. What will you be doing tomorrow?
- going sentosa and meet Hady Mirza ! my aunt promised. :D

23. Ever thought of robbing a bank?
- ya, like in a million years' time.

24. One thing you totally regret doing/done?
- kissing that bastard. grrrr. >:(

25. Do people like you?
- ehhhhhh, dunno leh. do you ?

26. What was the last game you played on the computer?
- roller rush.

27. Someone who means a lot to you at the moment?
- right now, him. only him. right now.

28. The color of your mobile phone?
- pink and black.

29. Do you hate someone at the moment?
- nahhh.

30. What do you wish to happen now?
- a bag of cash appear on my bed. =.=

31. Last time you ate pizza?
- 2 days ago.

32. Ever been given a ring?
- yeaps. with his name engraved.

33. Do people think you're weird?
- yea. mother, father, sister, relative, SUFIYAN. all think i am.

34. Movies now showing that you hate?
- don't have.

35. Most important thing in your room?
- my queen sized bed. muahahahahahahangus.

36. Last movie watched?
- deathnote.

37. Who is the person you want to see right now?
- sufiyan.

38. Ever called a person useless?
- ya, my bro. hahaha.

39. Are you good at hiding your feelings?
- yes. (:

40. 3 people to do this survey?
- DANIIIIIII (:
- SUFIYAN. muahahahas. (x
- RAIHANAH.

okay, so i fiqured MI is worth a try.
parents + relatives all encouraged me to go for it.
and then, i asked them what about my first job? i wanna experience that too.
and they say, that one not important.
cos they say teens don't work for experience, they work for money. ok la, true. heh.
and they also say later if i work, get money then syiok already.
never think about other stuff.
then shopping very nice already, then neglect the studies.
PLUS, they say my mum can give money everyday if i go MI. then whatever i wanna buy mummy can pay. so i don't have to worry about earning that extra money.
:D

and then i said, "what about experience? other ppl work for cash, but i wanna trytry and see how it feels like to work."
and my aunt said, "going for MI an experience also, right ?"
so, yeah. then i shut up.
i hate it when adults talk and makes sense. =S

andand my dad also, he said "only 3 months whaaat".
ok, GOGOGO ZURAIIN !

GOOD enough i've got 40bucks.
may sound little but hey, how often do you get 40bucks just by rotting at home, huh ?
plus, daddy's 50bucks is coming my way ! muahaha.

ok, i'm out of words.
and i miss sufiyan so bloody much. period.

xoxo

chilling out, take it slow. then you rock out the show!

WITH LOVE ♥ 3:28 PM

Thursday, December 14, 2006

posted.

Music's ON: It Ends Tonight - All American Rejects

it was a rough night.
slept only around 2am+.
headache is killing me. still having it now.
my temples are THROBBING.
head hurts. eye hurts. heart hurts.

oh what a wonderful thing also, fever again.
freeeeeak !
in a span of 2 months, i get fevers on/off.
but i think this time, it'll last longer.
cause my eyes pain, and all parts of my body warm. ass lahs.

anyways,

NRIC : S900****Z
Name : ZURAIIN BTE MOHAMED YATIM

1. The results of your application are as follows:

Posted Institution : MILLENNIA INSTITUTE
Course Name : MILLENNIA INSTITUTE (SCIENCE)
Course Code : 43S

2. Please report to the JC/MI on 3 Jan 2007 at 8am.

DENDENGGG okayyyyyy !!
sighs.
what now, am i supposed to be happy ?
3 mths in MI. happy ? dread ? smile ? frown ?

ehhs, i can't think right now la.

oh btw kan, yall guess where i slept last night ?
k nvm, i slept at the living room floor instead of my big comfy bed lahs !
like stupid like that.
must be my headache la, made me do stupid things. =.=

yesterday i slacked at home whole day sia.
psp-tv-tamagotchi-comic-eat-shit-sleep.
slacker to the extreme mans. no wonder i'm getting fatter.
*pinches tummy*

wtf. i turn my eyes also my head pain.
OKAY ENOUGH ALREADY.

i'd better go now so, toodles yaw.

xoxo

that's when i love you, no matter what .

WITH LOVE ♥ 9:44 AM

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

random post.

Music's ON: Come Back To Me - Vanessa Hudgens

and so my cousin, Nina, intro-ed me this song i'm listening to.
it's pretty good, actually.
she's a big hugeass fan of vanessa anne hudgens and was planning to buy her album.
to think that she likes this kinda song.
& she's only 9 !
the world grows fast these days, ehs ?

anyway, got a glitch.
Mango's blazer is suede while the one i got at Bossini is corduroy.
ok, haha.

and hey! my tamagotchi's growing !
third stage already. hahahaha. and it's only 1yr old.

just for the heck of it.
and the second pic's inverted ! haha.

couldn't bother to edit pics these days.
one, my pic editing programme is being a bitch.
two, i think pics are nicer when it's at its original state.
plus, BAD BAD editing is a NONO for me!
so i stopped trying to recover my editing programme until i have a REALLY bad photo that needs editing. haha. =.=

ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh btws, my sister went to Tokyo Disneyland on monday !
freak. and she dare dare send me an email.
"just came back from disneyland...it was so GREAT..."
hmpf. so much for WORKING in japan ! still got time to go disneyland meh ?!
absolutely no fair. she'd better bring me home something nice.

& that's her in Nippon.
she sent me this pic through MMS.
EH, I RECOGNIZE THAT SHIRRRRT ! YOU BOUGHT IT AT VEEKO WITH MAMA AND ME RIGGGGHTTT. hahahaha.
& please stop saying she's prettier than me ?
i know ok, i KNOW.
ppl always compare me with my sister ! in the end, i'm called fat.
or rather, the FATTEST in the family.
but that's not a fair judgment cause she's the one who's freaking thin and planky la.
so is my mum, and my brother.
my father would be fit without the bulging stomach.
so....i AM the fattest !
>:(

this is such a random post.
hah.
okay, till here then.
till my next post, sweeeeet peas !
toodles.

xoxo

i'm not sorry, i'm not her.

WITH LOVE ♥ 12:01 PM

Monday, December 11, 2006

rough updates.

Music's ON: Breathe Me - Sia

ok i'm back for another entry !
sorry for missing out on 3 straight days, yea.
i'll do some rough updates.
first of all..

That's When I Love You - Aslyn
When you have to look away
When you don't have much to say
That's when I love you
I love you
Just that way

To hear you stumble when you speak
or see you walk with two left feet
That's when I love you
I love you endlessly

And when you're mad cause you lost a game
Forget im waiting in the rain
Baby I love you
I love you anyway

Cause here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cause that's when I love you
When nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you no matter what

So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie, it made you cry
That's when I love you
I love you a little more each time

And when you can't quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
That's when I love you
I love you more than you know

And when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that you give when you show up late
Baby I love you
I love you anyway

Cause here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cause that's when I love you
When nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you no matter what

That's when I love you
When nothing baby
Nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn the more i love
The more my heart can't get enough
Thats when I love you
When I love you
No matter what

No matter what

& i looooooooooooooooooooove this song !
so DARN sweet.
dedicated to him whom i love most, sufiyan.
happy 14mths, hunny !
it's been a rough ride, but you know we love each other too much to let it go. (:

(to listen to this song, scroll down to the 'GROOOVE' section of my profile on the left hand side of the page!)

&& A WHOLE LOT OF THANKS TO MUHD IZWAN SYAFIQ,
for getting for me a tamagotchi free of charge !
truly appreciated ! xDDDDDDDD
oh, except for the fact that you made me come down at 12.40am just for that.
HEY, but still ! hehehehehe. thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanks youuu ! weeee~

happyhappy girl.
i turned it on, the egg was there. then, crackcrack, HATCH ! girl ! lols.
so i named my pet IZZIE.
as in, IZwan so it's IZzie. see, i'm such a nice girl. LOL.

sunday (10dec)
went for first hiphop lesson !
FUN FUN yeaaaaaaa. but i'm a slow learner so i screwed some steps abit.
just a lil bit here & there. groooooooooovin`
and oh, it's suppose to be only one malay guy named, HAFIZ.
but, he brought along his mates from his dance group.
so become 4 trainers. haha. they're funny.
and um, a sickening lil boy who keeps disrupting. but whatevuh.

went to relatives' place after then went to east coast for dinner.
yuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuummy.

saturday (9dec)
nothing much lo.
grandparents came over to our place.
then went out to register for my hiphop course.
then fetched aunt and headed to vivocity again.

was thinking of collecting my Mango jacket since they called to say it arrived.
but mum kept telling me don't want.
cos it's creme and MIGHT DIRTY EASILY.
WHAT an excuse ! lame. -.-
anyway, she felt bad cos dissapointed me.
well, headed home then.

so i'll come back to today, 11dec.
cousins; nina & sabrina slept over here.
went out to town. walk walk.
then mum felt bad abt not buying my jacket remember?
so when we went over to the Gap store, she let me buy a tee and a sling bag. NICE okay ! :D

and then walkwalk some more. cousins didn't want to buy anything though i KNEW they do.
they just paiseh. wth.
anyway, daddy fetched us. dinner at tekka. thosai !
then headed to parkway parade. my fav !
bought some hair clips. lols.
then, found another jacket !!!!!! lol lol.
it's almost alike with Mango's !
suede with brown wooden buttons !
except it's khaki instead of creme. and also muchMUCH cheaper !
$55.30 instead of $149. savings~
so i did my shopping today. how great ! :D

and i got pissed off by an auntie in the store while waiting for my jacket.
she didn't say excuse me and just pushed me.
so i sarcastically told my mum, excuse me also dunno how to say.
then SHE SHOUT AT ME. T.T (the auntie, not my mum)
i say back to her la.
then blablabla, she said to me, "it's just a small matter. so petty!"
& i said to her, "i'm not being petty. it's BASIC MANNERS you don't know abt!"
then my mum continue for me. mum was supporting me ! hahahaha.
chaos for a moment in that store.

so that's it.
i gotta catch the suite life of zack and cody, now !
see you all soon, beautiful asses !
x)

xoxo

& strut your stuff;

WITH LOVE ♥ 8:18 PM

Friday, December 08, 2006

LALALALA

Music's OFF.

240th post !

hello beautiful monkeys !
i am feeling very up there. i don't know why.
just simply happy for no reason.
i guess having no enemies and grudges just gives me more to life.
who agrees with me ? (:
yeayea, i know someone who doesn't.
well, it's ok. do whatever you want. it's YOUR life anyway, ehs?

& hey you, when i say i'm nice, i AM nice.
but that doesn't mean i don't bite to people on the same level as you !
that is, level down there aka low-life.
pls, you don't know me. that's why you don't know that i'm actually very nice.
so don't assume everything okay? (:
thanks eh.
oh, and don't try to know me? cos i don't wanna try to be nice to you.
so LET IT GO, LET IT GO. DEAL WITH IT AND LET IT GO.
SO ALL YOU PEOPLE WHO THINKS I'M NICE, TAGGGGGG !
hehehe.

ehs, i dunno what else to say cos i don't understand a single word that person wrote other than saying i'm not nice. hahaha.
*does a little dance around the room*

talking about DANCE, my friends and i are signing up for hiphop dance lessons at bukit timah cc ! yay yay !
we're going there to register at around 3plus pm later. ok syiok. haha.

well, that's all i guess.
till my next entry !
toodles, cheesecakes !

xoxo

ps. i'll try not to call people names, anymore. i find that sophomoric. tsktsk.

you're the queen of superficiality; keep your lies out of my reality.

WITH LOVE ♥ 12:55 PM

Thursday, December 07, 2006

back from bugis.

Music's ON: That's When I Love You - Aslyn

[9:07pm]

YO YO YO YO.

i'm backkk ! lols.

ok so, my mum and i went to bugis.

mum wanted to search for a bag.

just because we going indonesia on the 28th, she want to buy everything new.

shirt la, pants la, slippers la. now bag. -.-"

ANYWAY, i just tagged along and let my eyes wander SO i can see if anything caught my eye.

yea, then saw one nice black/brown blazer from B.U.M !

think twice, thrice. decided not to get it cos mum say too formal.

okaaaaaaay, but i got two tops ! one goldblue and the other brownwhite. nicenice!

BROWN ROCKS !!

of course, shopping with mummy means she'll pay everything. yea~~

then, waited for daddy, then had lunch.

LOR MEE for me ! yummy.

then, headed to Funan again to collect our free home theatre system.

cos we signed up for scv mahs.

errrr, okay already then my mum suddenly offered to go vivo.

CEH, i excited already !

then okay. so we headed to vivocity.

walkwalk around.....then i went to Gap. i want the tee leis ! so niceeeee !

thenthen went to Mango.

I SAW A FREAKING NICE JACKET ! wootwoot !

it's creamy white with brown wooden buttons and it cost $149.

eh, worth it okay ! told my mum i feel like a chocolate when i use it.

really okay ! -.-

mummy agreed that it was nice ! decided to purchase it but my size no more stock. -.-

no worries ! i gave them my number and they'll call me when the jacket from suntec's outlet arrived at vivo. cos mummy dowan to go suntec. "leceh," she said.

mummy saw a bag she liked but she wanna "think about it first".

we walked around until my dad sick of us. HAHAHA.

ok so, tmr only my mum & i will be heading to vivocity again ! to check if my jacket arrived and to purchase my mum's bag.

&& find my sunglasses. cannot find lar just now !

errr, i think i gotta amend my wishlist soon.

oh yea ! and mummy also said when daddy get bonus (read: 17 dec), she'll buy for me a pair of levi's !

and 50bucks for myself. oooohhhh, best eh !

retail therapy is so syyyyyyyoooooookkkk !

hehehehe.

yeayea, call me a brat.

say i'm IRRITATING.

but it's ok. that doesn't make you prettier in any way. (:

yeayea ? why you so interested about me anyway ??

so what if i'm irritating? i don't care so you shouldn't too.

correct ? eh eh eh??!?!?

okok.

i'm feeling so much better now.

OH OH OH, tmr mummy gonna bring along her $100 best denki voucher so i can buy...

guessguess ??

THE SIMS 2 PSP GAME UMD ! woooooooooohooooooooooo~~

tralalalalalalalas-

i wanna be a kid forever !

& i've decided to cutcut my hair till above my shoulders.

& layerlayer it too.

& i want sweeping bangs. you know when the bangs is abit longer then can sweep it to the side ?? yeayea. like that. i dowan the budakbudak kind of bangs. HAHA. (read: children bangs.)

but i'll wait for my sister. okayokay. weeeeeeeeeeeeeee-

best lar.

why am i talking in doubles eh ?

eh, nvm. i happy can already. :D

so much more to say but i'll wait till tmr.

okay, seeeeeee youuuuu all in my next entry !

toodles, my pretty monsters (except one extra fugly one) !

xoxo

boy prove you're in love; you can look but don't touch.

WITH LOVE ♥ 8:30 PM

dreams

Music's ON: Irreplaceable - Beyonce

turd.
i hate my dreams can.
they never make sense.
as in they do, but only certain parts. and when those certain parts are put together, it makes no sense. NO sense at all.

like a few nights ago, i dreamt that me and my friends went out. i think we were walking by the road near bp plaza. then we saw this car and it was pink. then i told my friends, "heyyy, my dream car!" which makes no sense cos i don't even KNOW what the hell is the car. then my friends went in the car and the next thing i knew, i was driving it. -.-
andand the scene outside when i drive look very familiar.
just like the tracks in my ridge racer game !
I THINK I PLAY TOO MUCH CAR RACING IN MY PSP ALREADY LARRR !

okayokay, next. this was last night.
i was in some kind of garden. when i was walking, i saw her (who i shall not name who) sitting at one of the shelters. then i approached her.
then we just talked and laughed. then she asked, "are we friends?"
then i smiled at her and said, "you wish." then i walk away. HAHAHAHAHAHA.
i'm so mean luh. then walking walking, suddenly i reach the sea.
botanic gardens got sea or not ? SEA not pond la. cos i think it was botanic gardens. i dunno leh, my dream says it's botanic. -.-
ANYHOOOS, when i reach the sea then i saw ppl wakeboarding. then i climbed into one of the speedboats and tadaaaa, i woke up !

so merepek right ?!
i think i must wash my feet more thoroughly before i sleep now. haha.
oh i had another dream a few nights ago too and it includes sufiyan.
erm, maybe i shouldn't say. hahas.

eeeehhhh, i gtg now.
mum just called and she asked me to siapsiap cos we going BUGIS !
oh, the bliss after donkey years of sitting at home. heh.
i'm gonna get pair of sunglasses, bebeh.
YEA, i need to cheer myself up or else..........

ok..bye !

xoxo

learn to let it go. grudges don't do you any good, arse.

Labels: dreams

WITH LOVE ♥ 12:18 PM

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

done.

Music's ON: Stuck - Stacie Orrico

the first time we smiled to each other.
the first time you said 'i love you'.
the first time we held hands.
the first time we hugged.
the first kiss we had.

......

i don't want to let go..

"get your fucking ass out of my life!"

but i have to, and i deserved it.
i'm to be blamed.
i know it's too late, but i'm sorry.

iloveyou.

xoxo

i know you can hear me; just tell me you hear me ..

WITH LOVE ♥ 12:08 PM

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

rotten feeling.

Music's ON: Savin' Me - Nickelback

do i always have to make others feel better?
do i always have to give in?
do i always have to care about others' happiness and forget about mine?
don't people care about what i feel?

i have a fever now and i feel rotten.
so...bye.

xoxo

nobody's got to belong to somebody else .

WITH LOVE ♥ 2:31 PM

Monday, December 04, 2006

yet again.

YOU NEVER CHANGE.
AND YOU WILL NEVER LEARN.
YOU KEEP DOING THINGS I DON`T LIKE OVER AND OVER AGAIN.
I`VE COPE WITH THIS TOO MUCH.
I LET YOU STEP ALL OVER MY HEAD.
WHEN I KEEP QUIET DOESN`T MEAN I APPROVE.
IT DOESN`T MEAN I DON`T MIND.
IT JUST MEANS I`M GIVING YOU ANOTHER CHANCE.
& I SILENTLY PRAY YOU UNDERSTAND HOW I`M FEELING.
BUT NO, YOU DON`T.
YOU DO IT AGAIN. & AGAIN.
COUNTLESS TIMES.
YOUR MUM`S RIGHT, YOU ARE TAKING ADVANTAGE OF ME.
BUT IN A DIFFERENT WAY.
MY FEELINGS AREN`T FOR YOU TO PLAY AROUND WITH.
IT`S EITHER YOU WANT ME & STOP WHAT I HATE TO SEE YOU ALWAYS DO, OR LEAVE ME.
BUT FOR NOW,
GIVE ME A FREAKIN` BREAK.

PS. DON`T BOTHER ASKING ME WHAT IT`S ALL ABOUT IF YOU DON`T KNOW.
I'M TIRED OF THIS. I`M TIRED OF YOU NOT UNDERSTANDING HOW I FEEL.

WITH LOVE ♥ 1:20 PM

missed.

Music's ON: Who Said - Miley Cyrus

i've finally removed my nail polish.
& i think i broke a nail ? geeez.

& I can't take it, what am I waiting for?
My heart's still breaking, I miss you even more
And I can't fake it, the way I could before
I hate you, but I love you
I can't stop thinking of you
It’s true, I'm stuck on you

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ~
i need a break man.
and rotting at home everyday is so...bleargh.

10 more days till pae posting result.
i dunno if i should look forward to getting it or hoping i don't get posted.
i dunno, i dunno.

was discussing with my mum abt my future the other day.
-let's say i get less than 9points, i'd definitely take up the biomedical sciences course. no questions asked.
-if i get more than 9points, which is obvious, i'd try media&comm.
-but if my points can't bring me to courses i'm interested in poly, then i'd consider getting into a jc.
-& if i've got more than 20 for L1R5, i'd try MI.
-& if my result is like really bad, no ITE for me pls. i told mummy i wanna take private O or A levels, just like what my aunt told me.

i don't like the environment in ITE. cos i've been to my mum's canteen once too many times & its really, hmmm, sloppy. like, not disciplined ? maybe not new ITEs la.
ehhh, dunno la.

we'll see about my olevel results.
soon.
in about 2 mths time. sighs.

i'm scared.
right now, i can't think much.
i just want to get on with life.
start afresh, anew.
like one of the shows i watched;
wipe every single trace of your makeup. then wash your face, go for a facial, moisturise, mask, cleanse, rid of the previous layer of makeup and then put on another layer bit by bit.
it's an analogy. to you dumbarses getit ?
no ? nvm .

so yea, i wanna see a bright future ahead of me.
i really do.
i wanna make my parents proud.
make my family/relatives look up to me.
i wanna make myself really satisfied and contented, maybe just this once.
it'll do.

but will all these come true ?
God bless me. (:

xoxo

so don't stop me now; because i'm gonna soar .

WITH LOVE ♥ 11:57 AM

Sunday, December 03, 2006

shagged.

Music's OFF.

hello, zuraiin here reporting for an entry on 2/11.
lols.
okok. was out from morning and only back at around 1am.
so couldn't blog.

was at aunt's chalet the whole day yesterday.
grandparents fetched me + mum.
mum wasn't supposed to follow but persuaded by my grandmum so she tagged along after all.
reached.
didn't had anything to eat yet so we were the first chalet there to start a bbq.
at 11am ! lol.
then ate a little.
changed to my swimsuit then we were off to Wild Wild Wet !
aunt had a lot of free tics from her workplace.
so aunt no. 1/2/3, nina, sabrina, amy, haziq, uncle no. 1/2 and myself entered.

headed to the kids' playground first.
and my uncle shamelessly took the slides ! omg. -.-
so paiseh can or not ?!
then we went over to Ular-Lah.
hehs. best-est ! i like.
ok la, not much thrill cos it's my second time to WWW so i expected much of it.
didn't take the whatever bicycle in the air cos i know it's boring. LOL.
then headed for the waves, where those who chicken-ed out of Slide Up played.
haahahahaha. that includes my aun 1/2, the babies and uncle 1/2.
so one of my aunt, nina, sabrina & myself tried the Slide Up.
this is my first cos the previous time we came, nobody dared/able to take with me. lol.
AND OH MY FREAKING GOODNESS, IT IS DAMN SCARY CAAAAAAAAAN ?!
like pphhhhwwwoooaarrr.
my cousin, who's only 7, was abt to cry already. her face was so red !
i think my brain was blended by the time the float stabilised.
but nice la. the going up part sucks ! the float so heavyyy. =.=

well anyway, joined the rest at the waves.
then went for the bigbig slides again.
then took our stuff and went back to chalet.
except, aunt, nina, sabrina & myself headed to the Lap Pool.
cos aunt & I wanted to do real swimming.
so we did.
i did around 4 laps?
yea, then played with the cousins.
oh ya ! and i dived, my nose touched the floor ! wakakakakaka.
mind you, the pool was quite deep okay. like, above my shoulders when i stand flat.
lols. swim a lil more and we're off to the chalet !

bathe. changed.
EATING TIME ! yumyum.
nina & i ate like, gazillions of bbq-ed fish nuggets !
so tasty ! && chicken wings too !
& fish ! & hotdogs ! & fishballs ! & bbq-ed marshmellows !
yuuuummmmmmmmmmmyyyyyyyyy.
i didn't eat prawns though.
you know me. i don't eat prawns !
then there's nothing much to do. kinda boring there.
so all we did was drank and ate !
i think i gained like about so manymany kilos already lar. -.-

ok so, while waiting for my uncle who will fetch us home, we all watched a malay drama on tv.
i fell asleep cos was already too tired uh.

fast forward.
reached home.

checked if the scv is installed.
but no, then go to bed.
i'll skip the in betweens.
then only slept at 2+am.

woke up at 2 today.
look outside, scv is set up !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hoorayhooray !

ok now, i'm having cramps on my arm, shoulders and thighs.
thanks to swimming ehs.

anyway, i wanna bob my hair can ?
like cut it real short.
like sister's one ? can ?
but mummy want me keep long hairrrrrrrrr ! :(
but come to think of it, long hair is pretty nice too.
hmmmm, maybe i should cut bob on one side and keep the other long.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
lmao.

xoxo

try again or walk away .

WITH LOVE ♥ 2:18 PM

Friday, December 01, 2006

wasted.

Music's ON: Ugly - Sugababes

hi. i'm back.
obviously i didn't go for the REDcamp.
ok well, i DID.
question mark ?
well here's the story.

decided to go during lunch cos i wanted to wake up a little later.
plus, the programme before lunch is quite boring.
so i woke up at 10.
met dear at 11+am.
was so friggin` tired today la so my face all cramp.

then went to plaza for food.
dear ordered for me but i got no mood to eat le.
so he ate it. sorry darling ! =X
but he so sweet lo, still buy for me something to munch on. awwww. :D
anyway, we took 184 to NP.
reached le, called sebas. haven lunch yet so we waited.
abt 15min later, sebas called.
she ask me go in to the sciences block.

i was like, WTH. you think i know where is it ?!
then she say read the signs and go.
i'm like, "I DUNNO LA. THIS IS NOT MY SCHOOL RIGHT. you think reading the signs will help? i'm not a student here !"
and she said, "you surely know one la...just come in.."
then i totally lost my mood already larrr. SIAN-ed.
(me) "you come to the bus stop and find me la..."
"ok you go the convention centre and wait for me there. i find you."
"I DON'T KNOW THE WAY THERE LA YOU EXPECT ME TO GO IN THERE ALONE ?! THIS IS NOT MY SCHOOL YOU KNOW. YOU THINK I KNOW THE WAY AROUND ?!"
"you don't know the convention centre meh ?!"
at this point of time, i'm seriously infuriated and moodless.
"i know la but i can't go in there alone right? i don't know the way there!"
"then you don't expect me to go all the way to the entrance right?!"
"WHY NOT??"
*silence*
"ok la ok la, you wait.. i go there. *HANG UP*"

you tell me,
is it easier for a stranger in the school to find another at the entrance,
or is it easier for a stranger outside the school to enter and search for the other plus being clueless about the whereabouts ?
both parties are NOT students of the school.
obviously when you're a stranger in a school, you don't mind meeting a friend at the entrance what..
but a stranger ENTERING a school ? that's so weird la. some more i'm alone !
sufiyan can't go in cos he's not part of the REDcamp.
so then i waited for about another half an hour, and she's still not there.
i got so freaking pissed already la.
then she sms-ed me. i say i dowan go already...
i wanna go home.

so sufiyan accompanied me back home again.
wapiangggg. WASTED trip !

but i'm like so pissed. geeeeeeeeeeeeeeeez.

on a brighter note, the SCV man is coming today !
to fix the whatever thing.
yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay !
&& on a brighter brighter note, aunt is having a chalet.
and we're going there tonight ! weeeeeeee weeeeeee.
chicken wings, here i comeeeeeeeeeee !

lols.

right, till my next entry !
blastin` off-

xoxo

lost in everything about you;

WITH LOVE ♥ 2:24 PM