fck. today was bad luck.

i was late for APEL which starts at 8.
by the time i reached, they ended class. -_-
i blew my 10bucks on cab fare that was supposed to help me be punctual.
apparently, the road decided it should congest.
and the traffic lights decided to turn red whenever i'm reaching.

AND I LOST MY EZLINK.
instincts are telling me that i might have dropped it in bus 67. i realised it wasn't in my pocket when i was about to alight. i didn't go back to check cos the bus was full of smelly students! grrr. thank goodness i've got no school tmr. will probably take the time to go cck and ask abt it. gawd, this is so troublesome.

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/sidetracking/

Jap class on tuesday was soooo freaking fun!
i like. laughed quite alot too.
and one that i'll never forget is..


i thought it was nothing funny at first until Zul pointed out to me, kari dier masin lah. something malay peeps can understand. LMAO! i couldn't control my laughters lor!!! -_- the meaning? it's something non-malay peeps would say now..

"no, i don't understand."

yeah! and i know quite a few phrases too!
chotto matte kudasai (which according to sister, a more polite way used when she was working at the hotel is shosho omachikudasai)
ogenki desu ka.
watashi was Shingaporu-jin.
oyo kagaku no gakusei desu. (i'm an Applied Science student!!)

HEH. can't wait for next jap class. (:

/sidetracking/

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CCA Recruitment Drive is on.
TP is currently chaotic, brimming with freshies and others promoting their CCA. i wanted to sign up for Netball. but i had second thoughts. their training will be in the evening and it's not okay unless i live nearby. but i still wanted to go for the trials just to see if my skills are still intact.

i chicken out at the last min.
typical.

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i walked past TPDE's booth the first time and.. i don't feel belonged. WHAT THE HELL. am i transparent or what? urgh. and i've heard that the dance studio is now a tensely place? because everybody is competitive abt the 1 minute choreo. aren't we suppose to grow and improve together?

hah, 1 minute choreo.
it's driving me peanut butters. give up? it's painful to even think about it but i guess it's so much easier to do. still, i'm putting in anything in my choreo as much as i can. i don't care if i don't have the technique right. i don't care if the steps don't look good. it may be rubbish but come on lah, i have no basics on choreoing pls. throw me in an ocean and expect me to survive?

sometimes i wonder, why am i doing this?
i'm not happy. i'm miserable.
miserable just thinking about this choreography.

AAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG GGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

xoxo

Labels: angst, DANCE.

Music's OFF.

pictures first. i'll do the talking later.


grandma.




mum.










DONE.

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invited hy and sebas over to the chalet. slacked/ate/lie around while waiting for my cousins to come over. very late lah. once they reached, hy, sebas, nina, sabrina and myself headed to Wild Wild Wet straight.

Ular-lah
Lazy River
Slide Up
Tsunami

we took everything except Waterworks and Skyrider. skyrider is boring. have no idea why we didn't go on waterworks though. why ah? anyway, some incident happened at the Lazy River between me and some peanut ball-ed guy. i'm not sure if i wanna tell what happened though. i mean this kind of shit-ass piece of gigolo is not worth to be talked about.

fucker.

besides, i'm not keen on publicising how "gangster" i can be.
=/

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headed back to chalet after and realised some of my relatives came over. i was in my slutty tankini (halter top and super short skirt. it's a swimsuit, moron) with my MI tee over that has gone totally transparent because it was soo wet and i was dripping all over. what a grand entrance. so paiseh!

bathed, changed and stuff.
relatives went home shortly after i'm done. ate chicky wings, rice, satay and whatnots. stuffed. i asked my uncle to bring hy, sebas and i to pool! and so he did. he was so darn pro at it can. OWNED us for the first 2 games. lmao.

ok i'm boring you aren't i?
well i'm bored myself. i shall skip the rest.

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overall i had fun! especially WWW. weeeeee~
and you know, i have a swollen right ring finger thanks to that bastard at the Lazy River. NEH NEH POK! it hurts damn lots can!

ok, for the fuck of it (and also to release my anger), i'm gonna tell you what happened!

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we were minding our own business floating around on the Lazy River. all of us except Sebas were sitting on the huge float. out of the blue, some random guy (who happens to be a fucking asshole) went underwaters, pushed NINA's float over and capsized WITH NINA ON IT! Nina is fucking 10 years old and she could've drowned!!!!!!!!!! plus, it happened right infront of my eyes!

CAN YOU IMAGINE HOW FUCKING ANGRY I WAS??!!?!?!?
no you can't because i was infuriated!

i was flabbergasted considering it was a complete stranger and he has no reason for doing so! he still can fucking laugh and fucking smile and fucking HAVE SEX WITH HIS GF UNDERWATERS (ok, exaggerating but he looks like he wants to. ask sebas and hy!)

so i was damn fucked up and i shouted vulgarities (which sabrina learnt later on. ooopsie) indirectly at him and his gf. can't really remember what i shouted though. it came out of my mouth so fast i didn't had time digest what i said.

i remember saying, "slut right? must be a slut cos she look very cheap." when his gf and himself was near our float.

i was really freaking pissed off at him. then, when he was at the side of the river, our floats happened to be near him. WE HAVE NO CONTROL OVER THE FLOATS BECAUSE WE WERE ON IT. keeping that in mind, our floats hit against him. i told hy to kick his back and hy did (teeheeee).

i thought ok, i won't do anything else. he got kicked i happy already. which is pretty lenient after he turned Nina over into the water. we were minding our own business again when further up the river, GUESS WHAT THAT ASSHOLE DID?

HE TURNED ME OVER!
(that's when i hit my finger on the ground in the water.)

i actually can see him under me when i was on the float but God knows why i didn't come down! he pushed my float over so i dropped into the water, quickly got up and chased after him. i was like, THIS IS IT MAN. YOU WANT TROUBLE, YOU GET IT. he was swimming away when i was chasing after him (abit hard to run in water. =.=).

and infront of his ugly gf, i put my hand underwater and pulled down his pants.

he got up and i screamed right into his face,

"WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM?! YOU TELL ME!"
"*half-smiling while pulling up his pants* WHAT?!"
"YOU TELL ME WHAT IS YOUR FUCKING PROBLEM?! YOU TURNED OVER MY 9 YEAR OLD COUSIN! WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT?!"

his smiled faded away by then. probably realised i wasn't joking and was fucking angry at him.

"YOU KICKED ME LEH!"
"FUCK YOU! MY COUSIN IS 9! SHE COULD'VE DROWNED! WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?!"

i was very near his face i actually scare myself. =.=
but he didn't dare put a finger on me. i was taller anyways. hohums. his gf kept quiet the whole time. she was actually smiling when she saw me approaching her bf. it's not fucking funny. she must be retarded.

"pfffffttttt!!!!" went the lifeguard's whistle.
i complained.

"THIS GUY HERE TURNED ME OVER WHEN I WAS ON THE FLOAT. MY COUSIN TOO! AND SHE'S ONLY 9! SHE COULD'VE DROWNED!"
"WHAT THE. SHE..."
"is he your friend?"
"NO! I DON'T KNOW HIM!"
"*mumble mumble to the asshole*"
"BUT SHE KICKED ME LEH!"
"*mumble mumble some more*"

then off we went.
i continued screaming at him. he caught up with his gf who was faaaar infront. AND THEN HE SHOUTED BACK AT ME. just shows what a wuss, he is. coward, don't mess with me lah can. wrong person, wrong time lah.

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told mum and she said, "you don't follow like your mother...."
ROFL!!

and aunt said, "good good Ain. you must fight back."

i know, very gangster. SHUT UP.
i'm not proud of it. i don't know i could be like that also. nyeh. whatever. and yeah, my finger hurts like shit. it's swollen, bruised and blue-black on the knuckles. can't straighten or bend it. whatthefuck.

and it's also the same finger that was hit by a basketball twice and a netball countless times. poor thing. it must be so stressed up. lol.

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ok, thanks for hearing out my rants.
love you dear readers. muuuuahs! :D

but look at the timeeeeee!
tmr's school and i need those dreaming hours!
more entries next time, yall!

GOOOOOOOODNIGHT! (((:

xoxo

Labels: angst

Music's ON: Be Good To Me - Ashley Tisdale

A7B5.
that's my class.

orientation today was quite a blast. (:
i am pretty shagged now, so update tmr aights?

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well ohhhhhh well.
the COPYCAT has done her job once again.
she definitely lives up to her name, doesn't she?
low-life dumbass from style-licker land.

BE ORIGINAL PLEASE.
you don't have to steal my 'taste'.
(or anything else, for that matter!)

pfffft. >:(

xoxo

Labels: angst, copymeows, school, smiles

Music's ON: Here In Your Arms - HelloGoodbye

bitch, are you over me yet?
i am very flattered that you adore me to the extent that you want to actually be me. i am really very flattered. but it's getting a little annoying. no, scratch that. IT IS VERY FUCKING ANNOYING, YOU BLOODY FUGLY TURD !!

( GET OVER ME. )

click for private entry.
you know what to do.

xoxo

PS// to the bitch concerned, you may read it. in fact, i WANT you to read it. ask me for my password, IF YOU HAVE THE COCONUTS. and also if you can fight world war 3 with me. ((:

Labels: angst, copymeows, private entry

SOMETIMES, YOU SO THINK I'M COOL.
AND WHEN YOU CAN'T BE ME, YOU START TO HATE ME.

YOU JUST DON'T WANNA ADMIT. (:

( OH, YOU SO WANNA READ THIS. :D )

click to read private entry.
enquire for password.

xoxo

Labels: angst, private entry, smiles

Music's ON: Just So You Know - Jesse McCartney

Labels: angst, crapping, movies, pictures

Music's ON: Sugar, We're Going Down - Fall Out Boy

IS MY LIFE THAT INTERESTING TO YOU PEOPLE?
seriously.

why does seeing me cry bother you?
you don't even know what's really going on with me.
(my darlings are exceptions, of course.)

i talked about this because mycandyride.blogspot is my ranting ground.
i didn't say i'm searching for your entertainment.
of course, YOU are the joke already. pffft.
(=.=) (x.X) (O.o) (>.+)

why does such INMATURE (haha! will never forget) people can't get over it, eh? no life, right? that's why invade people's life and make them miserable. tsktsk.

MORON.

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ANYMUNKEYS, todaaaay is extremely boring.
i went bpp to meet mum as usual.
she forced me to choose the place to eat, again.

nothing much
then we head home luh.

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i'm online ever since.

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my throat's really dry, right now.
& i'm starting to cough.
& my voice is hoarse. *croakcroak*

i am a miserable kid living with morons in this world.

saaaaaaaaaaaaave meeeeeeeeeee!

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and one more thing. DON'T antagonize me. just fucking don't.
i fucking cannot stand it.
later not my fault become my fault.
ROAR!!

xoxo

Labels: angst, sick

Labels: angst, heart affairs, new stuff

HELLO YOU.
YOU, YES. YOU.

THE ONE WHO LIKES TO COPY ME.
YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE. GUILT-STRICKEN YET?
IT'S OBVIOUS ENOUGH. WHAT I WRITE HERE WILL SOMEHOW REFLECT IN WHAT YOU WRITE IN YOUR BLOG. THE KIND OF PICTURES I SNAP, YOU WOULD HAVE IT TOO (ONLY UGLIER). AND MY VERY RECENT OBSESSION WITH TOPSHOP SEEMS TO SUDDENLY INTRIGUE YOU AS WELL. THIS IS NOT A COINCIDENCE. IT HAPPENED NOT ONCE OR TWICE OR THRICE. MANY MANY TIMES. GET A REAL ORIGINAL LIFE, COPY-WHORE. BE YOUR(moronic)SELF. I'M SICK AND TIRED OF YOU SOUNDING LIKE ME.



and it's not like i visit your blog regularly. one visit and i can see it all. all your unoriginal entries with words so obviously picked from MY post. not like i'm boasting or anything. i don't have to. just by following me, you automatically agree that i'm cooler than you. hah. suck THAT. and oh, thanks for visiting my ever so original and all-zuraiin blog. ^-^

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sheesh, this ain't the first time i'm having entries like this.
'a tribute to people with no originality'.

i should be honoured with all these people who are looking up to me (or rather, my entries). thanks alot, yea. FOR BEING SUCH AN ASS.

well, there is this saying,
"IMITATION IS THE BEST FORM OF FLATTERY."

why, thank you. ((((((((:

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veryvery random picture.

this is really baaaaaaaaad editing. please don't learn.
photoshop makes me go KERAYYZAAAAAAYY. there's soooo many graphics that i just wanna use them ALL! so that explains the so many pictures. ahaha. btw, those stuff in the middle are microscope, DNA strands and test tubes. it's such a pretty graphic that i just HAD to use it. that's why i came up with that awful caption about biomedical science. lame-o. yawnzzz.

and i edited it in the first place cos the background was really ugly, it made me soo mad.



SEE. i told ya. ;)

for that certain copy-whore, that picture's for you to gorge your eyes at.
pffft ! '_'

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multiple multiple multiple entries today.
ahahahaha. 'm loving this.

xoxo

Labels: angst

Music's OFF.

SK DIDN'T REPLY MY SMS.
DIDN'T PICK UP MY CALLS.
DIDN'T RETURN ANY OF MY MISSED CALLS.











AGAIN.

AND HE TURNED OFF HIS PHONE.
WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO?!

this sucks. i want to move on, but i can't.
because i still love him.
and i don't know what i did until he's avoiding me like this!!!!

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Dear God, please help me. please tell me this is a blessing in disguise. i don't wanna be the girl who breaks down every single time. i want to be strong. so please help me through this.

please.

Love, Me.

xoxo

Labels: angst, heart affairs

Music's ON: Valentine - Martina McBride

and even if the sun refuse to shine,
even if romance ran out of rhyme...
you would still have my heart until the end of time.
you're all i need my love, my valentine...

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had a tiff with mum last night.
and my sister was the one who started it.

we were in the car and i was sitting in between my mum & sis (worst thing ever, trust me). then my sister start crapping and say that i will sure not make it through the 3 years in poly. and she kept saying jc is better cos got guidance and poly is very independent. and she said that i will regret going poly cos it doesn't guarantee me a job even if i got diploma. and she continue to yak yak yak right into my left ear. i kept quiet the entire time, just keeping my anger inside. she knows i wasn't listening to she direct it to my mum, "later after 1 year she will say she cannot tahan then want to drop out. alot of my friends drop out of poly. you think she can make it?"

put yourself in my shoes, how would you feel?
discouraged?
infuriated?
on the verge of giving up?
all of the above? definitely.

then the evil sister read my printed verification slip and told me bluntly,
"i'm sure you will get the 10th choice (hospitality and resort management) and end up working like me in a hotel. and i only have o levels. you would have a diploma but still? nobody will notice. olevel grads like me can get a job like this and you have a diploma but it doesn't matter."
more discouragement.
but i'm certain i won't get posted as far as my 1oth choice.

then when i got home, mum asked me. "you think you can finish 3yrs in poly?" i didn't answer. i was thinking, of course i would try, i definitely will. but i don't even know what poly life is like yet. i didn't wanna talk about this anymore. then she asked me again, i replied, "what? i don't wanna talk abt this anymore la. stress you know." then she asked me about another 4 more times all the while i tried to control my anger and stress. then, i've had it. i burst into tears and shouted, "PLEASE LAR! I HAVEN'T EVEN START SCHOOLING YET! I JUST REGISTERED ONLY! DON'T MAKE ME STRESS CAN OR NOT?!" and stormed my way into my room, sobbing hard.

and mum scolded me for being rude. but does she know what i'm feeling? does she even want to know? all this pressure from my sister, she's just adding to it. i'm the one right at the bottom while other people are on top, expecting soooo much out of me. i wouldn't say i've stretched to my max but at this point of time, it's as far as i can go.

aunt called me and talked abt this. she told me my sister is giving me the wrong approach. and she told me to go for it no matter what the course is. forget what my sister said and just do my best. my aunt said that my sis can't force me to do what i'm not interested in because i'm the one studying, not her. she added, if i get into the course i want, it would be a slap on my sister's face. she told me to prove my sister wrong. and damn it, that's what i'm gonna do.

mum came to my room after scolding me (and after i talked to my aunt) and she asked again. i told her repeateadly i don't wanna talk about this anymore. i was feeling so fucked up i wanted to ask her to leave my room but i won't do that. because she's my mum.

after awhile, she left. i slept while drowned in my own tears.
why did i have to go through this? i thought my stress would be over once i get my results. and my olevels weren't that bad. in fact, it was pretty good for myself. then why am i crying?

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got a call on my hp early this morning. it was mum. i didn't pick it up. too sleepy, frankly. then the house phone rang and i didn't bother to get up either. i don't pick up phonecalls at home in the morning. then, mum texted me, "Sayang mama very so sorry k. i love you k."

you owe me a trip to Parkway Parade, mum.

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now all that's over, i just want to enjoy my time.
with my darlings, my family & relatives. just forget about my application (until posting results are nearing) and have fun. leave all stresses and be happy just. this. once.

make me happy.

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one thing's for sure, my hp makes me happy.
I LOVE MY N73 MUSIC EDITION !!
my fav feature? definitely the 3.2 megapixel camera with Carl Zeiss lens and integrated flash ! so now i can officially bid goodbye to low quality pictures ! teehee.
it also has the music feature so that with a press of the music key (unlike my 3250 where i have to twist), it plays all my favourite songs! :D :D :D

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until here, princes/princesses.
i will post next time and hopefully (if blogger permits), i will post up more (better) pictures instead of wordywordy entries like this, yea? hehehehe.

&& HAPPY VALENTINES' DAY ! <3<3

xoxo

hey, how long till you're leaving me alone?

Labels: angst, new stuff, special days